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Choices "Step Ten"

As the Days pass, and the story gets longer, and as I continually grow stronger. The more I realize I require a day away for self-examination. Time with the Lord, time where I just wait with Him and allow Him to speak to me and clarify my destination. The pursuit is for others or is this pursuit for my own spiritual growth. How is it I got here; torn between doing what He told me and showed me and doing what others say I should do? The perception is that it couldn't be deception, perhaps it is only another one of the enemies distractions. There's satisfaction in accomplishment but what is it all for? Should I be doing less, could I be doing more? The door is open to exit, and the pathway is open for continuation. What I need is time with my Father to see the direction He is directing me to apprehend. The Pathway is full of serving Him, and the door is full of serving Him. I will serve Him no matter what I do, but I want to serve Him how He wants me to. It's true the challe…

Thinking Out Loud "Step Nine"

Sitting here thinking about what can I do to continue this path that I've started. Not willing to quit, but some times it gets hard to press through with the clear stance of failure. Wouldn't want to be the one to accept defeat as the final destination but for reasons beyond explaining this situation is what it is. Trouble is always on the horizon and discipline is still needed. Strength and focus and willingness all require self-control, diligence is as well. There's not any successful forward motion without friction and what about clear direction. Open to suggestions, open for accountability partners, but what if their not disciplined, then where do I go. Now, what do I do? Spiritually I'm straight but scholastically, and financially there's a struggle from the choices in the past. When do the new decisions begin to overcome the old ones? Toiling in the field but not getting the yield from the stock concerning positivity? Was the early life so full of blunders th…

Growing "Step Eight"

The denial and the distractions of the past were all leading me here Now that knowledge has grown, I’m no longer a slave of the puppeteer Living a life without fear, worry, or doubt has allowed abundance to be understood There is no life in the things that the world calls to be good Would I be able to explain? Maybe with more time. This relationship with the Father has created a new paradigm No longer in it for self-fulfillment or self-glorification Still learning to trust Him with my complete preservation I know that He is Divinely Providential And everything through Him is more than possible Glowing in His glory, basking in His presence, enjoying His peace In all aspects of my life, He is my centerpiece No longer can I speak those things that curse God’s beautiful creation Now I command blessings over every person and nation A patient and caring individual I am growing to be Some many things could be said about how good He’s been to me But I’m running out of time it’s already past three This step ha…

Misty Blue "Step Seven"

Into the Blue, moving without thought and without any fear The next step is, oh so beautiful, becoming increasingly clear The view of more and more to come, causing me to be eager to persevere Nothing more to accept the path that has always been here Dark in the beginning, and now so impressively visible Could not have previously presumed for the darkness was so comfortable Understanding growing; making it hurt to watch others failing to move forward Forced to know, and the love in me causing me not to want them to be tortured The snakes and the fakes holding them back, this could possibly be you I’m writing this to all as a warning or a reminder of what we must do The truth is for me, and it is for you; therefore we should accept it Oh, it hurts so much when I think of how many of us neglect it Disrespect the one who is and was and who will always be The One that sits and waits for us to escape from bondage by merely choosing to be free The beauty of the love and the joy and the peace available …

They're Not Right

Towards another stair embarking on this journey; (in mid-transition)
As it continues to lead, build, and grow gradually, focused on the mission
Always the same but somehow different as the elevation goes unfelt
Each as an individual expedition, just playing the cards as they’re dealt
Nights are of the day, and days of the night and sometimes in the middle is a new day
Somehow, they try and hold me back, causing confusion, but that’s just their way
Who are they; you may ask, the description givers, the war winners
They are the historical kings, dictators, but not necessarily the beginners
The ones who defrauded undetected and were ruthless enough to lead
The leaders that when disrespected; someone was made to bleed
Strong courageous and dangerous, they are the ones that are they
Deceivers in a way, but built all that there is today
Surrounded us in darkness, convincing us that we’re in the light
Approaching a certain abyss, calling those things that are wrong, right
Descriptions allow knowledge and …

Stumbled "Step Five"

What is it all for, where am I going, I can’t even see a door? The destination is unknown, and neither is the purpose anymore Everyone has advice, and they’re always presenting new opportunities “Aren’t you searching for something better?” they ask, displaying many possibilities Get money, love yourself, don’t you want more, the perpetual message of these days Multiple emails, text messages, and phone calls, explaining to me how well it pays Perhaps I should indulge in pleasure, enjoy my life, live the American Dream Give into temptation, take a closer look, is it all they make it seem It’s all going to be worth it, you’ll be happy you said yes, is what they keep telling me Spending all my money and time chasing an idea of being financially free I’m willing to run as hard as I can, what else do I need to do? Call my friends and family, and put them on a three-way with you Did that. Now what? Then what’s next? I spend twice as much on my order than I get on these checks What about cryptocurrencies…

Questions "Step Four"

How do the challenges work?
How do I avoid deceit?
How will I know my place?
How will I know defeat?
Is it in the beginning?
Is it in Your voice?
Is it going to be obvious?
Is it all my choice?
What should I be thinking?
What should I be doing?
What should be my next question?
What should I be pursuing?
Is it about life’s purpose?
Is it what I’ve always done?
Is it there is no answer?
Is it going to be fun?
Why can’t I do this?
Why can’t it be that?
Why must I be afraid?
Why must I be abstract?
Is it really that dangerous?
Is it just a conspiracy?
Is it because it might not be?
It is what it is, and that’s what it’ll always be.

Life is a Gift "Step Three"

It’s not my place to influence, only to encourage and enlighten. Reciting these words with Love, how come so many, I frighten? When a dangerous description was likely, it was as if they doubted me. Now that I’ve seen the light, I live outside this fleshly body. I am beyond materialism, nonsense, and mortality. Universally living and exceeding every boundary. If you give it, you’re going get it back, so watch what you give. Tears, smiles, shrugs, and daydreams are a part of life no matter where you live. When in the moment, you should remember to focus. This is wisdom, understanding flows from this. Will or won’t this help you to know yourself? Is it not it you, that’s responsible for your health? So, I advise taking this as dictated. Life is a gift it should be appreciated.

Romance, passions, and a zeal for life, what if you do, what if you don’t. Well if you are living in fear, you probably won’t. It is God who gives us the ability to fulfill our dreams, He makes all grace abound whe…

Crying "Step Two"

With my written tears, sharing the things that concern me
Devalued meaning of friendship from a lack of loyalty
Common forms of disrespect, tolerated by the uninformed
Individualism facing extinction, media leading us to be conformed
Warned we don't listen, we avoid preparation
Taking the suggested path, not questioning the destination
Devastation and disaster, more common than love and laughter
Afraid I am; that there's an inescapable puppet-master
Not the Al-Mighty exactly, but the one that will pretend to be
Wow, this leads me to those who don't believe; I pose no religious theory.

Nevertheless, I'm clearly blessed beyond my own physical ability
Beliefs are for everyone’s own, any and all can feel me
Closely I watch, so frequently I see more and then more
A whole nation in debt; of course the majority of the population is poor
What are all the lies for; Decreasing the value of life?
So many secrets openly revealed, how many scriptures can you recite
Please forgive me; light in all …

Step One "2008"

Insane in my thinking, logical in my actions
I could erase you without blinking, but there's no satisfaction
Practicing my ways of expression has always been my life
So when dealing with confusion, I continue to live my life
Listening is the key, but my strength is my assertiveness
This so ironically, is also my weakness
Keep this for self and allow it its purpose
Self-preservation needs encouragement, that's why I do this
Finding my flaws, those corrected and those in progression
Sharing experience and knowledge, through my loving expression
Not showing discretion, delivering the pain and the joy
Omnipotent being, once a man who was once a boy
Seeking the truth, revealing topics for interpretation
Knowledge is just the keys, Wisdom comes with the application
Days in, days out, we fail, and we succeed
Stand strong on your foundation, and beware of lust and greed
Inside there is deception, with "Him" there is protection
There is darkness without night, all is controlled by perception

Mr. Reality (Ground Floor)

From the afternoon into the night, days will come, and they will go.  You don't have to tell me what is real, because I already know.  There will be special circumstances that require certain decisions and the situation that is caused, isn't always the intentions. This truth is plausibly noted, but I hardly pay attention, my mind, heart and my gut remain in constant contention. Humble I must be, while my kindness is killing them slowly. To tell the true story; My passiveness is evolved out of not wanting to get blood on me. Priority is in the moment, don't continue to tempt me. It's not what you think; I just want to live peacefully.  I've been chasing reality, knowledge, and respect since I was able to think, talk and see; So now I introduce to you Mr. Reality. We actually use to be happy in the darkness, and this is a time where we share and reminisce. Not promoting it but showing with it how one can change. We have moved across many lands, and many people have sh…